ok, so i think i could be a blogger, hmmmm

at 44 my life has come to a cross-roads. i feel like i have so much to offer but the question is, what is that? and to whom am i offering it to? as a single mom of 2 teenage daughters, one, 18 and the other 15 going on 30 they keep me on my toes. after my ex left almost 5 yrs ago, and Ill tell ya, that was the best AND the worst year of my life, lol, i think i lost my mind, almost. the bi-polar-2 kicked in and i finally had a reason for all the craziness i had lived since i was 15. i was at my lowest and ready to leave this earth, i thought my only way out was suicide, and man was i wrong. after my diagnoses and then a few years of therapy, and meds, i found a path which i never thought i would take ever again. school. oh God. and all the while i watched my oldest sibling, my brother michael (who was like a father to me, 11years older, and the patriarch of our family) die of cancer, it was a long 2 years he battled and suffered without as much as a "oh poor me, im sick, feel sorry for me" he didnt complain once and was everyone elses rock through it all, he took the hand which was dealt to him with such grace and dignity. he gave me the strength to face my fears because no fear is greater than death and i was going to suck it up and not wallow in my self-pity any more.
a close friend encouraged me to go back and get my high school and move on to post-secondary in the health and human services field, the only place i could imagine working: helping others. i did it, i struggled through those 3 years of school work which i dreaded every moment of, but the courage i found in myself was over-whelming, the life-lessons i stored in the back of my tired mind will forever be there. the young people i met and the whole college experience was something i would do all over again. they say that the friends you make in college are for life, well, i now have 20+ kids as well as my own 2 and their heart-stamps have made an imprint on mine, they are my forever-friends.
im rambling, but thought these few sentences could start some conversation, im hoping anyway:)

Forever Jo:)